Things will catch up with me, like click in my mind. I pick up details and I put them together after things have happened, so I might not get mad right away, but I will when I realize what happened. And I just feel like I’m probably being real dumb, and it wasn’t meant for me to take it in the context I am, but this shit feels like low blow after low blow.
I sincerely try to be positive about things, but I am a very non confident, shitty self-esteem kind of person. I just feel like I have my arms open, and people just pat me on the back and keep walking, and I hate being alone.